The day after the doctor visit.

I woke up this morning with the weight of the doctor's prognosis on my mind. Staring at the ceiling, trying to figure out if I have the strength to truly change my life. 

I want to believe that I do. I want to feel this blog post up with confident words, and optimistic views of the future.

But....

The truth is, I really don't know.

I don't no if I have the strength of will required to save my life, and uphold the quality of my life. I don't know i I have the endurance needed to stay the course. The spirit to stay upbeat, and optimistic for the future. How do you change?

What's the secret to mastering will?

Will I learn it?

I don't know!

Here is what I do know... I am going to pray for divine help with my journey. I am going to the grocery store this morning, and I am going to buy the things the doctor said I should now eat. I am going to the gym this morning to walk on the treadmill. I am going to read and study the plan. That's it.

That's what I am going to do today. 

I have to take it one moment at a time.

Until the next moment

Julia